Bittersweet-ness

Yesterday it was really bittersweet for me, it was one year since we started TTC (exactly one year since the visit with the evil gynaecologist) and it was A’s christening. She is now 4 months old and the most gorgeous child. She smiles ALL the time, is breastfeeding like a pro, blows raspberries and reaches out for things she wants to touch. She honestly is such a friendly little baby and I think mom has an easier time than she thinks.

A's dad walked me out to my car yesterday to say goodbye after the celebratory braai and I told him that J and I are really honoured to be A’s godparents. He looked me straight in the eye and said “we wouldn’t have it any other way”. I kind of got all tongue tied after that, I didn’t expect it at all. Here’s a little baby; the most beautiful baby girl on earth; that we have been entrusted with should her parents not be around for her. Her parents are the only people who can give her exactly what she needs, and J and I have been blessed with that amazing gift! Wow! My goodness, it’s a bigger responsibility than I thought and I don’t know how one would even choose godparents.

J called later that evening to tell me about Sweden and I told him the story of the day. I think he was quite sad that he couldn’t be there and kept apologizing – even though he is having the most wonderful time in Hudiksvall – just like Canada he says.

It seems quite a solemn day: everyone moaning its Monday, there’s a heat wave and all sorts of horrible things happened over the weekend in SA. But I think of Little A and want her to believe in the good of life and never know that there is evil. Reverend Shaw said yesterday that we should praise the Creator not the creation – but when the creation is so perfect you cannot help but be in admiration.